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You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it
In the end all I wanted you to do is stay here with me.

~~This hurts with every HeartBeat~~

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Friday, September 30, 2005, 11:39 PM

-coffee koPi-

*the angel of love, u r the stars that shine the passion of my heart*

The day out wid my frenz...to a place looking all so familar in my day book.
in and out we went shops galore...the scent of food was mesmerizing me in my mind.
mos was the junction, looking at it really makes me drool. Order away..
I was thinking in my mind off somthing. I jus feel wierd it seems like my time is
slowing down everything is moving at a slow pace.
Not listening to the others tt surround me but jus me deep in thoughts.
Thinking abt y am I in such a state...a state of jus blur vision.
Even i get mixed up in the crossroads, which way to go.confusion!

Coffee Club called up to me..I was delighted as i got the job.No more waiting.
Waiting is a form of eternal hell to me. No form of sound jus silent mode of life.
The forms filled in, was it left aside do they hav in mind of us.Orientation would be
on monday. Hope for the best.

Stop Stop all this sweetness to my heart..i can't take it no more.
I think i am falling, its a deep n far. Don't hurt me, tresure me.
Think the thoughts of floating clouds, moving endless.

Thursday, September 29, 2005, 1:48 PM

-the patchEs ball-

*will this be forever, am i yours to keeP?*

wierd,confuse is all i have in my book of emotions.I jus dun noe so jus bear wid me in my thoughts and my world of confusion. My life divides me up into different section its like a book wid different chapters you won't tell until u read it to the last...all i can say is that i feel like being like the patches ball which 20 ppl would be chasing after...y would i say that i wanna turn into a ball?am i out of my mind actulli no. If you were constantly beside me as a fren i think that u might understand wad i am trying to say. To be wid the one that is addicted to the patches ball, u would rather be tt patches ball at least its the most of the time u spend wid one and will be alwayz by one's side...
My mind is clear for one point tt i am relieve...the fact that one being clear minded when all of it started.The fact that milk makes me drunk.Now i will spend all of this to my fullest.will it be the last or its just the beginning, how will this story end?
The story of the gal unfolds to a new chapter= the chapter of when gal meets boy.
I am leaving the book open..pen down my thoughts,my emotions.It was my 1st and its now wid one...I wish i wish tt one would say 3 words. Words to me speaks louder den actions.

Gaibang you were wid me all this while i jus wanna say no matter what happens next semester...i am glad that u were once in my life. I would always remember this statement of uhu is better den super glue.

Saturday, September 24, 2005, 10:36 PM

-faTed?-

*To go wheRe my heaRt leads me..to Find my nevErland*

shld i be happy or sad? reason for being sad: unable to find a job, have to take sub-paper for 2 subjects, my fave watch the strap buckle broke off & no money..happy: the times i spend wid gaibang and wid my b.frens really those were the best times of my life..I can't be happy if we split up next semester it would never be the same.

Today went out actually agreed to go and surpport my fren for the hokey training but oppz i overslept, sry gal...met up wid zhang lang..and head towards cityhall pacific cafe to study(She was the one studying while me slack and help her wid art). whooo it was comfy to study there cos got those huge sofa but the song there they play sux...lol and i made a accomplishment in drawing 4 objects dint noe tt my art has improve...lolx
After slacking for awhile we head towards the shopping mall looking for shops tt require part time assistant...got quite a few need part-timers but den is either the age or the working hrs which hinders me....nvm i can live without a job...it not to my deads end yet. I have the urge to buy clothes frm e-base but need $$....we went walking around till we reach marina shopping mall so decided to walk around..we saw alot of mediacorp ppl while walking around also..den went up towards the arcade area....spotted some1 but i was in a wrong dress code really dint want him to see me so i decided to try my best to avoid him...but hhahahz lesson learnt: the more i try to hide the easily i would be spotted....in the end i was spotted so went to say hi...but really dint expect him to pop out so yea kinda shocked!talk to him for awhile den went off. We walked towards the esplanade library and slack there to wait for joyner tt women to come...while walk quite a long distance so kinda tired, sat on the escalator step..while heading down saw 2 gays...gross out den i think i too engross in them dint noe tt reach the ground already so i dint get up in time and i fell once and when i tried to get up i fell again..zhang lang was laughing her ass off...okay its like once in a blue moon i fall so its nothin lolx...

We reached the library finally..whooo den i was bored so decided to take out the scissors and draw it again...ohya we plan to head towards lau pa sat to eat satay...it was like after half an hr joyner came and we set off towards lau pa sat...we walked there cos it was quite near...fatman satay i am coming....we sat down and place our orders 15 sticks of mutton 15 sticks of chicken and rice...the satay cost $18 yumz tasty...den something came into my mind: wads all this food without beer? i decided to try my luck see whether i can get some beer...went to the drink stall and ask the auntie for 2 cans if heineken...whooo the auntie dint say anithing jus pass it to me yay my 1st time buying beer...maybe i look old tts y dun wanna check my id..hahahx but its like 5% onli so we had a fun time enjoying our food and drink...nice! lol after awhile we played games to finish off the beer...i learn how to cai quan le..whooo.

it was abt 9+ when we finish our food and decided to head towards cityhall to board the mrt back..on the way bought ice-cream yummy...today realli dam blur dunno wads wrong wid me...
We reached the mrt station at around 9.30++ likettt...was thinking of boarding the east train at raffles so tt we have place to sit cos alot of ppl waiting for train at cityhall...sat down on the floor waiting for the train to come...den i look towards the right i saw him again lolx wad can i say really fated..hahhaz i was like eh....lolx den my frens were like going crazy laughing non-stop i feel so paisei...broke record le meeting the same person 2wice in a same day different timing...
they kept laughing and laughing i wanted to dig a hole and put my head in...

Thursday, September 22, 2005, 2:28 PM

-lobsTer-

*never be awaY...shadows upon my stay...*

i feel so burn so red looking like a lobster...those who haven seen a cooked lobster feel free to take a look at me.lolx

yesterday went swimming..hmm the swimming complex at tampines was still under revonation so met wid my baobei and ines at the bedok mrt control station..we den took a stroll towards the swimming complex...as usual on the way there all the crapping starts coming out..kinda immune to it ahhhahahx. finally reached the swimming complex and went to the machine to get the entry tickets...paid for the child admission lolx aniwayz nobody will check even u dint pay the right amount. the admission cost 50 cent...den i was tackling dorothy at the passageway of the entrance cos she dint wanna let me enter 1st...(tt childish 14 yr old)tt was how old she said she was when she blurted out the wrong age while we were crapping..ohya so we were still pushing each other while i kinda notice the screen of the passageway said:" passageway open". so i jus push and went in...and the thing was tt i dint insert the entrance card in the machine so kinda went in for free (heyz kristin i got into the swimming complex for free and got my tan lolx)...actulli had a tot of coming to swimming complex for sun-tannning cos aniwayz i can't swim..but baobei keep swimming laps and laps so i swim a little bit...yucks not to mention there were so many kids having their swimming lessons. so decided to cross over the deep pool. kinda trying my best to tret water but hahahz no matter wad my head jus cant keep afloat..i slack at the same location awhile and decided to swim lap...the lifegurds had fix the life-lines across so i felt tt it was safe to take a swim although i might drown at 1.8 meters...it was when i was swiming halfway which is at the 1.8 meters i felt tired so decided to take a rest there so i held onto the life-lines...den a guy whu was swimming on the same lane as me suddenly stop and ask if i was alright. i replied him yea i am..den he ask me to slowly swim..lolx actulli i was kinda paisei cos he tot i was drowning. tt guy i can say was really woah i dun mean his looks i mean he swim freestyle non-stop like abt 50 laps...

After swimming, went back to tampines and went round to walk walk...i was looking around for shorts to buy...kinda broke but haix nvm i need it...wellx today still slacking the person haven call me up for interview yet...sadx really hope they hire me i had enough of slacking...tml going swimming again whooo and the great part is tt i dun have to pay the admission again cos the card is still wid me.

Monday, September 19, 2005, 12:24 PM

-milk makeS me Drunk-

*boy meets gal, u were my dream my world, but i was blind u cheated on me frm behind*

whooo the best day ever...1st of all i am sorry kristin i dint mean to burn you...i dint noe the candle was lighted...dui bu qi >.< yesterday went to celebrate lantern/mooncake festival wid gai bang...we went to bugis to find sparkles...candles were also brought along....after getting all the stuff which we were hahahx kinda an hr late cos the meeting time was like 7.30 pm and we reach there abt 8.15?hahahaz & we even hav mooncakes to eat thankx to marcus...lolx walk towards the far end of marina bay the place where the statue is not the merlion there ar....lighted the candles and all tt and played wid the sparkles but the guys kinda was not tt enthu...den we play the concentration game: this is the game of concentration 22,55...55,11....ahahahx a game which makes everyone blur...lol rite gina? she did the bananas of the world unite heeex... lolx after tt i really have the urge to drink...kinda dint drink for a long time...marcus and ce went to buy them...so we continue to play until they return wid 2 bottles of black cat...n a can of my fave henekien...lolx i think i drink too much le..kinda half drunk after tt.... after quite awhile lao da finally came....ohya did i mention tt the gurls (exclude me) were fixing out the gai bang word using candles...and when lao da came he did the honour of lighting it...we actulli tot of helping him light it but he insisted on lighting it himself he mus be sooo touched...after we play for awhile longer we started clearing the place tts when i puked...but after tt i was feeling much better...(do not drink wid an empty stomach). I really couldn't walk straight...so meiyun had an impt role of guiding me.(me: thank you meiyun)If she dint guide me i think i will be all over the roads...lolx waited for a long time after we managed to hail a cabby...2 half-drunk and one fully awake in a cab wad do u get? U will get meiyun saying: bu yao zai suo le(i think she said tt if i am not wrong) stupid lao you tiao la keep toking and toking non-stop dunno whether he is aware of wad he is toking abt also...went back home and flung myself into bed..zzzz....

Saturday, September 17, 2005, 11:45 PM

-The one tt i am eyeIng on-

*brIng me back to the paSt, Where it all seems so Dark. When i close my eyeS, takes me bacK to the Start*

i think its time for me to start cracking...i think i had slack enough..getting really boredthese days nothin to do really having self-entertainment...I have a serious addiction to technos now and i dunno y. After i start listening to the song crazy baby by fantasy project i jus cant stop. Even marcus was surpised tt i listen to it...and ya i dun anti-technos, aniwayz wad made u think i anti it? I need to get myself a job anibody hav any lobangs? Maybe gonna find job next week wid joyner... and b4 tt i think she needs some rest due to the horrible camp she attended...

nothin much really happen today...jus plain normal slacking..i feel like a piggy..eat,sleep,com,tv lolx..went out to have dinner at suntec and kinda walked pass the adidas shop and well went in to have alook at the jacket again trying to hint hint for them to buy it for me...hahah and ya really it worked..but haix really quite ex. $119 for tt brand...but i really love tt jacket been eyeing on it for a long time....love it! Tml going to play candles wid gai bang wonder wad type of nonsense they will come up wid this time...I jus love their nonsense...

Thursday, September 15, 2005, 8:38 PM

-priVate numBer-

*noOne tt caRez,eyes Of saD...Don'T cry some1 will be There, somehoW someWhere*

Let me say this impt thing....When a private no. happens to appear on ur handphone b4 saying anything or wad so ever ask 4 the person's name.....!Today i received a call frm a private no. and i wellz blur tot tt it was my fren or sumthing....he assume tt i was his galfren or sumthing...kept toking and toking....and i was like pei he him keep toking to him also...den after like abt 3 mins i found out tt sumthing was wrong wid this guy...he kept asking me wad i am doing wad so ever....so i ask him did u dial the wrong no.(in chinese) den he say no this type of thing how can dial the wrong no....i kept asking him whu he is and he dint wanna tell me...saying tt i can't recongize his voice wo xin li mei you ta....i was like laughing already...den i ask him whu he is again...den he said he was michael den i reply u really dial the wrong no. so for the whole of 5 mins i was toking to a stranger....i think he dam pai sei....

met ines today and she came to my hse awhile to collect sumthing....den we went downtown to do some shopping and to walk walk....i can't really get use to my rebonded hair yet it is jus too flat den my fringe realli look like some pri sch kid likett cos i accidently cut too short tt time den the hairdress kinda re-cut it...back to the kai kai part we went to bugis den to orchard den back to cityhall...woah walk so much my legs can break...but the good thing is shopping on weekdays no crowd no nothin can shop in peace...i bought a sumthing for my sister to give her as a birthdae gift when she comes back frm perth (see i so good to u, veri ex. u noe and its not on sale unlike the sweater u bought 4 me :X) den i bought a leather bracelet frm 77th street n a pair of earrings....the rest of my $$ goes to the food part...went to yoshinoya 4 lunch, teabreak at tangs basement eating oyster mee sua den dinner at cityhall having my fave roti prata...yumz....now i am glad tt i am sitting on a chair resting my feet cos we really walk far too long....

Wednesday, September 14, 2005, 11:15 AM

-borEd--

*a dosE of ChocoLate maKes me go yum yum*

I am Super duPer boRed.....Some1 pls brIng me out! nVm i jus have to rot for today & tml i would be outta here!haix but tml not sure to go where kai kai....everywhere i go nothin is interesting, all the same things...but aiyoz still eyeing on my jacket.....

Yesterday paRty worlD was fun, at least now i noe how party world look like...other den the snacks tt was nice compared towards k box...i kinda prefer k box better...hahax and ya gai bang up to their usual stuffs lar -_-""....no matter wad conversation it is abt will surely drag me in wid xiao cao.....lolx i think we r becoming part of the entertainment in the grp....lolx den there was this song wu ding...in order for them not to repeat the song over & over again aiya pei he u all abit tts y sang it wid him....and ya i saw wad u all were doing while we were singing it was super gross....even more gross den the previous role-play....hahahax but really i hav no comments on tt....lolx den we took pictures and xiao cao was the one taking the pictures for us....as usual gai bang ppl making craps again say he zooming in on me and not the rest of the ppl....hey no lorz everyone is in tt photo....hahaha
F.O.C (Full Of Craps) ppl i am wid all the time no wonder my life is soooo fruitful....gai bang rox!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005, 8:33 PM

-SweeT-

*be my aNgel of my liFe. be There wid me for ForEveR....Be the One thaT makE my heaRts fluTTer*

I stepped outta my hse and was on my way towards the airport to meet the main grp...gonna go there to study for the dcnk test on fri. On my way there keep smsing some1 i mus say he was really sweet...meeting him this sat for a movie...actulli he was going to use the complimentry ticket on the movie thingy this sat but tt sotong blur blur one dint realize tt it can be onli used on weekdays. The part i find sweet abt the sms he send me today was when i ask wad the movie red eye was about...and i ask whether it was scary...cos realli i hav the tendancy to use my jacket to cover my head during scary movie and would watch onli like 1/4 of the whole screen...lolx he told me tt he would lend me his shoulder though its small....although said in a funni way but owellx it is sweet.Really dunno wad funni things will happen to me this sat...maybe i will start stammering infront of him or worse do things tt r realli dumb...be a bimbo flower for a day.

I reached the airport at around 12.20 which is late cos we said to meet at 12. but yi chi ye you yi chi chi translation 1 whom is late the others will be much later....but phew kristine & jf reach le at least i dun hav to wait alone and solidfy at tt place...we were sitting around waiting for the rest to arrive....the song is still stuck in my head after jf played it....wo bu jie wo bu jie,bu jie ni dian hua...but hahahx pls pick up the phone if i happen to call....
After awhile later the rest came to meet us den we went to mac to eat and as usual lar all the lame -_-"" things started to come out....n we did some muahahaha stuff....we cant study at mac cos they were chasing ppl out no wonder nobody there today...went to walk around looking for a place to study we walk towards so many different places....finalli rested my legs at the kids table at the popeye(dunno whether izzit spelled correctly)fast food res. I feel like i had return to my childhood days sitting there watching popeye cartoon....we sat there till we were able to find a proper table...realli dam cute la we so big sit on such a small chair....lolx
I studied abit onli as i really dint hav any mood for the books...den after that lao da came....luckily we dint 1,2,3 stand up and call him lao da i think alot off ppl will stare at us...lolx but our gai bang like very rich can sit at fast food res. and eat....

tml i would be sleeping like a piggy den afteer tt will be doing dcnk revision....cant wait till exams end...