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You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it
In the end all I wanted you to do is stay here with me.

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Sunday, December 25, 2005, 7:53 AM
-is tt real?-

Woah its now 7.30am on x'mas day. Y am i up so early i shld be in my bed sleeping but i wellx just reached home not long ago. I shall pen down my thoughts on today and the day before.

I went x'mas present hunting on fri and was wid the members on a shopping trip. At 1st i tot it was a simple trip of shopping but I was totally wrong. They told me that they wanted to visit OCH(old changi hospital)i was giving a little shock expression y they want a tour of it all of a sudden. I was alright wid it though cos I was curious. We met the rest of the gang at 8pm at the tampines interchange. The gang of gaibang was there excluding yh and later xcluding meiyun cos she drop off the bus but there was wee leng and his 3 brothers(tony,pornstar,monkey). 1st of all who is weeleng? He is the protecter cum Taz of gaibang. Guess wad i've got a long lost "brother" call shu ren, arrgh its jus a long long story.

We boarded bus 29 from tampines interchange and reach OCH at 9+pm. While making our way there we came across a group of girls n boys which consists of secondary sch n 1 pri sch student. They intended to go xplore OCH also but i think they hesitated and was standing at the carpark. Since we were going there also we decided to give them a tour of OCH so we told them to join us so there were our gang wid 10 ppl and a group of little kiddos we brought along. We dint bring torch-light luckily the kiddos brought them or else our phone lights would not be sufficient. 1st up we climb up the steps and went into the room. There was a drawing of a star sign on the ground i think its for prayer purpose. We went on to the other rooms taking pictures at the same time while exploring. Instead of seeing "things" that will scare us, wee leng was the one scaring us. The poor kiddos were scare out of wits.

After exploring 1 building we went on to the next one. In this building itself i think there is a person living there. Y do i say so?There is a cup, a bed, a calendar, mirror, a newspaper labelled last tues in chinese. The problem lies because of his foot wear. it looks like those in the 70s the cloth type and its blue in colour n the position of shoe was arranged in an awkward manner. We went through the room and went pass the corridors level by level while Taz was playing hiding games to scare us.
I think i am becoming more "meng" as in i was leading the way back out wid only gina,pornstar and myself the rest were still quite a distance at the back of us. While on my way out i was using my phone light to lead the way which i saw a reflected light shining back at me. I was certain that there wasn't any mirror to reflect tt light and moreover it couldn't be a person cos there were onli the 3 of us on our way out.

I still am unsure of wad was it tt reflected the light back but i am sure it wasn't human.
i got a pic taken at OCH itself but dunno which dumb dumb stole my hp adapter so i cant upload it right now...
i shall find methods to upload it.




Sunday, December 18, 2005, 10:42 PM
-i need some sleep-

yawns....zzzz...have you ever seen a panda out of cage? Dun worry if u haven seen one, just meet up with me and i am sure there would be one. Dark rings arrgh its like i haven got a good night's sleep. How interesting warning letters are these days, they come in very plain ordinary envelops, labelled with no temasek poly logo and it comes with 2 address one at the top with my name on it another at the bottom with my dad's name on it. The thing was i dint know abt this warning letter until today when i came across it and my itchy hands went to open it. Its not that i dint have an MC/LOA is just that they do not accept an MC from a chinese doctor. I mean just wad r u trying to imply here chinese doctors are not as good compared towards western doctors? i've got an MC from a chinese doctor y can't you just accept the fact i visited one to cure my sickness. I received this warning letter because you dint accept the MC and like what if its more serious i get a debarment. I mean an MC is an MC whats the difference? I dint know poly life would be soooo arrrrrgh....They are just trying to make my life difficult throughout my 3 years of stay.
Tragic....

it was a touching 34th 10 anniversary held at aloha changi last friday. Retro was the theme of the night which ahem i had to find some outfit to get me through the night. i manage to get something out which i find would be much horrifying if i wear it out on normal days itself. The event was okay but till towards the games part where by errrr.....but overall i had a fun time. can you sopt me in the picture above?Next time if anyone is having a gothic night count me in.




Monday, December 12, 2005, 11:54 PM
r u there?

I see myself in a room,
it was dark.
The empty space made me felt alone.

I cover my eyes,
not wanting to face the darkness.
I felt myself shatter,
like a broken piece of glass.

Its just me feeling this way....

Awhile later i felt warm,
It felt as if someone was holding onto me.
I dint want to open my eyes,
afraid that this warm might leave me.

Tears overwhelmed me,
it was trickling down.
My tears were being wiped away.

My once tightly closed eyes opened up,
r u there?
nothing I see but darkness.




Tuesday, December 06, 2005, 11:36 PM
-waiting-

*WaiTiNg*

i stood alone,
watching the cars passing by.
ripples i see upon puddles water,
rain droplets trickling down on me.

Afar i see a silhouette of shadow,
image so blur.
Stretching out my hands to it,
it turn out to be a silhouette of mist.
Tears forming up my eyes,
all i could blabber out was: come back

This girl alone in the rain,
still waiting for a presence.

An umbrella to stop the rain on me,
i turn around.
It wasn't him but someone so unfamilar,
sheltering me from the pouring rain.

Thank you was all that i could say,
i went back with dismay.
Was i wrong?

This boy stood in the rain
and waited for her.
The boy was sad,
thank you was all she said.
the boy liked her, did she knew?

I went home,
notice a bouquet of flowers at my doorstep.
It had to be him.

The girl ran back to the boy...

He stood there waiting,
i ran up to him and hug him.
thank you for your presence
and your await for me.
i treasure you.


(story?poem?thats your decision)




Sunday, December 04, 2005, 11:14 PM
this week pls be over...

*i hug you but you arn't real to return this hug back. At least u can absorb my tears*

Busy mode switch on for this week.Just done the java programming today for tml i see that irksome gay for lab. Really 6pm all will run smooth. Got show n tell this tues during jap tut, no paper no qcards allowed 3mins i will have to stand there and pull through it by memory.

My hair is purple =) stay colour dun fade away. i sat at the chair for an hr half . 1st the bleaching than the adding of the colour but owellx she miss out a few strands at the back which were yellow. Wonder wad colour will be next if this fades i think i will change it to blue.

I manage to catch the harry potter head movie, gosh sandrick droolz he was really handsome but he had a terrible death. Not 4getting the one with the silver hair Draco malfoy he is good-looking also. I shld had brought along a pillow to the movie, u shld noe the reason.

eeyor i bought it cos it was really big n cute. it cost $29.90 though. At least the material is good *hugz*
I took off its x'mas clothes err dint really want to strip him but i had my reasons.