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You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it
In the end all I wanted you to do is stay here with me.

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Sunday, April 30, 2006, 9:09 PM
silence..

its me...felt silence surrounding me all the time. hmm..still feeling abit empty inside, skipped my dinner yest. Actually now i kinda like those little pesky stuffs known as kids..Jus seeing them living each day, carefree. Their smilez, laughter really brighten up my day a lil...

Now i really feel like talking to the floor lolx.."Hello FlooR.." hahaz kiddin.
My hamster was trying to act cute today, carried it out for awhile and played wid it when i chase it back to its cage, it made a u-turn and came out again. Luckily i saw its actions and chase it back again.

I wonder y did things start to happen, i tot all was well..kinda feel sad.
but wadever it was no matter what the reason is: bu yao neglect wo =/
i felt it again, did you feel it too?




Friday, April 28, 2006, 10:35 PM
3rd mth...

i really dunno what am i feeling now a series of mixed emotions...i feel like tearing apart. Y did things turn out this way, I just want things to be like the same as b4. I cant afford any more sudden suprises all i want is to be with you and a little of ur time.are those excuses given for me to hate u? you told me u were keen, let actions speak louder den words. I still want to be with you.

let things change for the better =/

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i hav a galfren who describe job description
as slack, even more slack and fun
when it was suppose to be written
as admin,waitress etc.....




Thursday, April 27, 2006, 5:06 PM
sad/happy

i feel like crying, i feel sad, i feel disappointed....but after the phone call i felt better =)

i almost lost my hp today. Left it at the toilet at century square.Luckily i realize it after like 5 mins later. jf helped me to dial my no.(xiexie jf) and tt arrgh tt took my hp cutted off the 1st call den re-dial the 2nd time the phone was answered but nobody responded to the call..we heard some malay voices + some laughter.I was pek chek as i tot tt person did it on purpose of not answering the call, at tt moment i wanted to whack the person if i find her. Met ivan and kristin later and we were all tracking down the myserious person. I suddenly tot of there was a cleaner when we entered the toilet and jf heard a music rather similar to the one playing in the toilet. We went back to the toilet...and found the cleaner. jf den ask her for my missing phone, she ask: your name...jf said:su ling, she said: correct. and took out my phone frm her pocket and return it to me. At that point i was wondering: how did she know my name? Dint have my name written on my phone leh. hahaz she spying on me.lolx wierd i was thinking wad would happen if we dint find it, she will take my phone and sell it?=/


I bought a cap frm surf and ski...my 5th cap
chio leh i like..hahaz


my 5th cap to my collection...

i still miss my favourite cap i lost during new yr, sighx my ripcurl wonder which ah na is holding onto it idiot...

went to 77th street and saw the diamond dog-tag tt jf and me always wanted. $29.90 i saw the price i hurhur and zzz...and i was pacing abt thinking of whether i shld get it. Den i arrgh! I bought it eventually. Reason: i was pek chek. Everything i eye on tt shop was tt price i felt like killing myself. I renew my 77th card membership another 12 bucks gone but i think i needed the card for discounts + i can get my rebate. Anybody needs the 77th discount card tell me. I saw a veri nice guy-tee also i want leh. but aiya i think and think later look like bootch and boy dun want me how? so i be girly...=)


lalalallaal....its mine =X

hope tml dun hav the saturday night dancer in my cmsk lesson. i will puke blood or maybe join him and dance saturday night fever together. The stupid dance steps are like still in my head. Sem. 1 students behave like little pesky kids la, make so much noise and ask so many stupid questions during lect. behave so enthu, snatching free handouts. i left lect. hall yest becos of them sia, nami downthere teach i think sure get bully by them. i cant stand them, pek chek i see their lok kok faces also sianx.GROW UP!arrgh!

After 12pm would our 3rd mth le boyboy...I want to be wid u 4 a long long time and u cannot run away =D
i <3 u.




Tuesday, April 25, 2006, 9:43 PM
continue.. ..

after potions class by potter, i got tut lesson alone and i was zi bi literally no familar faces. The lecturer was blabbering abt the history of himself in tp and his past students. YawNz zzz...but he is nice at least he cares abt us the thing is there are onli 9 of us in his class alone. Hav to find him and pass up my tut sheet tml, i look like a little kid going through spotcheck of homework.

After tt i went down and look for kristin..we were both dam hungry. We ate rice as our main course and we shared carrot cake. omg bu kui shi gaibang gals always eating all the way...yum yum yum. i was really bloated after lunch i felt like i gain a few kg in jus a split second.

Attended ah na lec. and jf noticed tt he got dou ji yan...hahahax and i still dun understand what he is teaching all this while...so jf and i did some smiley printing on papers..


finger smiley printing =D

Black clouds were hovering above us and...we predict its gonna rain soon so no swimming.
hahax heavy rain was nt only the reason for stopping me another reason was i dint want to play gooseberry between a couple so dint tag along...I dropped off wid kristin at the bus-stop near the mrt and followed her to ps to shop shop...
On our way there we heard: BOOM.... lolx and it rained mao gou yu..

Reached ps and went to min industries to get kristin micky mouse shirt tt she has been eyeing on. den we walked around...went to 77th street and i bought a shorts =D
and the salesperson was poing me to buy even though i intended on buying haha..she po me i felt so paisei. kristin bought a dark brown berms..nice leh i also like..next time i also buy 1.=)
i also like the skirt frm fleshImp lo but size 7 wear liao drop instantly too lose, size 5 wear liao is fitting de but later fat how...size 6 <---dun hav such size lolx
so cannot buy..sighx if i skinner hao le. 50% discount leh...i sound like auntie =X
Bought a black speg. top frm s & k too =]

Was chasing bus no.7 if i know the uncle dint want to open the door i wont even bother to chase after it waste my energy. wah 100 meters dash i cant run as fast as steven lo =X whoopx

sighx i still feel sad inside even if i was enjoying myself...
How i hope tt everyday was stuck at the same date 28th.

zZZzz...blog off




9:00 AM
sianx 1/2

i am in potter's lab now, she extremely bore me to death. I tot magic was fun, she dint teach us how to ride a broom. hahax ok i will stop being so critic abt her.

i miss strawberry pokey...Going to get one during break time later. Lets hope it doesn't rain later going to downtown east to swim. i am hungry i want my breakfast, i am sleepy i want some sleep.

Wingardium Leviosa....i see objects floating =D

hungry,sleepy,hungry,sleepy,misses,sianx,yawnZzz...




Monday, April 24, 2006, 9:39 PM
yawnz

reach sch at 9am to go for lab lesson, time-table always give wrong indication especially the weeks to report for lab lesson is totally wrong. Open the lab room door nt even a soul was there. How can they trick us likett on the 1st day of sch..i noe they miss us but can they use other methods to express it. yawnz went to techno kopi tiam and slack...Luckily got lao da to pei me for lessons or else i die there rotting alone.

Went to add/drop subject. We were frantic looking high and low for rita choo. She seems to be gone for lunch like 4ever tt we presume. So we went for our lunch also. After tt attended lec.. sianz, the thing was to me sankara this name seems lady-like. It turn out to be an ah na lo, and he was waiting for potter's lecture to be over. haha after potter was leaving he turned to me and said lets go lolx....

After lec. which i was doodling...Rita shld be back frm her lunch and we went to staff lounge to look for her. phew she was in there. Got her signature and her ok response to add the subject den went down to 2nd lvl advisory room to alter the time-table. Guess wad we hav to queue up and wait for our turn, its like a doctors visit omg....And it was stupid the wait time was long and we were rushing for lab lesson, so we went for lab lesson, rush through lab sheet and went down. Heard tt the number seq. was going cranky so it took like hrs jus to get it done.

arrgh next thurs i got make-up lab and its like 3pm how am i suppose to slack frm 10am-3pm?
KILL ME!

lalalala..boyboy is happily sleeping away now. another 28th is coming soon. =]
hmm hope he dint 4get abt it.


blog off....




Sunday, April 23, 2006, 1:33 AM
my past.

i was reading the poems i posted on poetry.com during my secondary days. After i read them i found them rather stupid. Scenes of stupid flashbacks started to pop through my mind. Some which i wrote were kinda life experiences hahaz, those were the days.

Haven wrote anymore new poems to the addition yet cant think of anything. Brain jammed.
haha i think those tt want to read what i wrote in the past i guess u could read them but cannot laugh although i feel like laughing when i saw them also.
http://www.poetry.com
last name: ang, 1st name: rain

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school is starting, leave me behind....i am tired of life, everything.
To live a life like that, i was wondering y am i here in the 1st place.
yeah i know everything happens for a reason, its fated.
Truly if i have a choice to make, i will choose my path of
- nt existing in life.
-------------end of thoughts-------------------

tt was nt my normal self jus ignore it,
I was being a little zi bi.
There are somethings in me, and i just
dont know how to xplain them but to keep them.
Maybe someday i will jus break away, lose control.
4give me for tt day.

1 word: Sick.

all i want is a little piece of heaven, all i need is a little piece of heaven.




Friday, April 21, 2006, 12:13 AM
sianx

jus came back home...the briefing basically were crap. Some topics hmm really got no link to the subject and he kept talking. I hear him tok tok i want to orh orh le zzzzz...
Raining veri heavily today luckily i got standby cap. Sigh time-table out le lo...sianx ar dun really feel like studying le. KILL ME! Thinking abt being in different classes all over again makes me sick. Pls dun ever put me in a class wid those 8 flowers, i'll step on them.

After the briefing, went down to matilda to eat. Veri long never see matilda mao mi le lo, its still as darling as ever. The kittens were so cute, they were in the flower pot which is their birth place. i want the kitten but hor haix i cannot bring it back i got my fat hamsters. Ate steak today not bad...kristin eat until rather xin ku cos of the spicy pasta she ordered. Like eating a packet of curry powder down. I can take spicy stuff but tt is really over spicy le lolx.

Went to compass pt awhile to get kris's ah ma's birthdae pressie...went to hse of feng shui and look look and she bought a pan tao glass display. it has a meaning to it: for good wealth and health i think. As usual i went to comic connection and my xuan wu kai zuan finally appeared yay i waited veri long for tt sickening book. Took bus 80 back home wid gina and walked the errr alley...i want to ban jia faster.

stay wid me stay wid me now and 4eva,
dun u noe tt i need u, i want u in my life =)

sometimes techno songs speak some things from the heart. tts the reason i fancy them.




Tuesday, April 18, 2006, 12:04 AM
brunch =)

i almost cant wake up today, i set the phone alarm at 9am and it did ring but i shut it off and tot okay maybe i sleep till abt 9.30 shld still hav the time to rush down to bedok. Instead i slept till 9.45 den i panic, and left hse at 10.20+am. No choice i cab down to bedok...ai ren went for driving lesson at ubi and i met her for brunch =]

its like so long i never set foot on bedok lo...we were searching for long john silver. walk walk here walk walk there cannot find leh...luckily my ai ren dam smart de know how to navigate and she anyhow walk and found it. After grad frm sec. sch i hardly get a chance to meet up with her its like after a year den we met up. But haha our crappyness is still there as usual we can just sit at one spot and talk the time away. ahaha wad to do she hav such a great fren like me to lame with =D
Talk till abt 1++ den she meeting her aiai at cityhall so i travel down with her cos anyways i go back home i got nothing to do. When reaching the end of city-link there would be a few glass doors to push open which would den lead to the bridge connected towards suntec. The doors are really heavy cos some1 almost bounce back while pushing it open...lets keep tt some1 a secret hor tracy...=X see lar so skinny eat more la the door also want to bully you.

We went and window around suntec...We had ben & jerry muahahax...chuncky money,cookie dough, and the cherry flavour thingy lolx. We sat there talk talk and slacked. After tt we bought some drink and walked towards the convention centre. It was raining lo and its those mao mao gou gou rain(cats & dogs). I literally sian diao lo no umbrella and i gave a thought to my hair.
Not long after her aiai came liao (mei de: he ok lar nt bad de quite sweet de wor). i dun want to be glowing bulb so i went off and boarded the mrt.

i reached paya lebar still raining lor jiu ming ar! Actually the main thing i dint want to get caught in the rain was becos i was wearing white pants...white pants + water = transparent pants. so in the end i stuck at the bus-stop. i dial and call my mama to save me lo she say on the phone ask me to 1) wait for the rain to stop 2) run back home. i bo bian diedie hav to choose choice no 1.
so i stand at the bus-stop like gong gong...lolx den boyboy sms me and i told him how ke lian i was..if the rain really never stop hor u will come pei me mah?
den eh i got shocked by my mama she took umbrella down after all heng ar wo you jiu le =)

Now these few days shld be will rain bah so i think i shall bring cap whereva i go lazy to bring umbrella and no to white pants during raining days [=

yay can see my boyboy tml le :)




Thursday, April 13, 2006, 11:30 PM
arrgh..

ahhh...feeling super duper pek chek today:

1. i was crossing the road towards bugis junction and i was looking out for the oncoming cars, i was about to cross and this ka tei ayam auntie crossed over frm the other side and she literally pushed me away and make a sickening "sek" sound...i was like &%$#$#@#!!! inside of me. She thought that the whole road was hers...She knew that i was standing there cant she like siam me or sumthing. So short already still want to bully ppl she was glad i dint push her on her head =X

2.Was walking towards the bus-stop to take the bus back home from dhoby ghaut, this funny uncle stop me and handed me a pen..okay i tot it was a bad sign. He told me about unemployment stuffs and all the crap, and told me to agree to his point that umemployment is somehow a sad thing. He talk non-stop and i look at the note wid the pen in it which says this is not a charitable organisation, these ppl would earn a comission amount to the number of names, e-mails collected blah blah blah and i saw a $2 written on the thingy so i tot $2 was a reasonable amount. I was wrong, it was $10 bucks and i see my money flying frm my wallet. The thing was he ask 2 teenagers to thank me for the money and hello they were well-dressed and all tt i am sure they could find a decent job jus anyway and not by these means...i felt cheated i rather donate it to the needy instead.

3.i alighted frm the bus and was walking towards my home, i walked pass the petrol kiosk and if i would to walk alittle faster i think i wont be here sitting and typing this entry. i almost got hit by a car turning in and the car was jus a few cm away frm me. Gosh, its been so long since i was this close. Now i remember the times i was pulled back by my friends to avoid accidents.

i bought 2 more fur balls today...1 black 1 white [=
hmm..but the texture is diff. frm the one attached to my hp.
At least this time it wont look like "rice" when i place it on the table.










my fur-ball hp sling with wings =D




Wednesday, April 12, 2006, 10:54 PM
-.-

i was utterly bored and i decided to do a google search on my name guess was i found:

The Suling is a simple bamboo flute. A notch is cut into the the side of the top end, and this top end is surrounded by a rattan of bamboo ring, leaving a small slit where the player will put his mouth on. Suling is the simplest and cheapest instrument in the gamelan.
There are basically two types of Sulings. A five finger-holes and a four finger-holes. Each for a different tuning system. Five finger-holes for pelog system and four for slendro system.


-.- bamboo flute....simple and cheap.




10:02 PM
i am bored...

i am utterly outrageously bored...pls do something suling lolx.

my daily routine: wake up, eat lunch, sleep, wake up, eat dinner and stone.
Ahhhhh....some1 pls bring me out...

T.T




Tuesday, April 11, 2006, 12:48 AM
iceage2

you and me a little different but we tried to stay the same lalalalala...
tts the song by yellowcard called: waiting game
fallen in love with tt song and its lyrics...i am nt sure y =]

Watch iceage2 today leh ahahax =X
i love the stupid saber-tooth squirrel dam spastic de...
becos of saving a stupid nut it will try all means to get it but in the end also nt successful.
its known as scrat and though its stupid it manage to save the iceage meltdown..
stun O.O

but i like spastic creatures...ahahaz
imagine being send to heaven and the reason for death: i was trying to save a nut =)

Guess wad i bought apples at mac donalds today..
wait let me xplain y i bought them: it is known as apple mac dippers n i thought is those crispy apple chips wid caramel dip.
I was totally wrong: I got slice fresh apples...FRESH...pack in nice packing wid a caramel dip.
I think tt i would be the only person eating apples in mac. kill me please...

my new interest: to disturb ppl and for ppl to disturb me =D


tt thingy above is :scrat
see he hold on to tt nut so spastic..=]




Sunday, April 09, 2006, 12:25 AM
injured =C

before i start this entry i mus say somethin to 2 ppl....kristin dui bu qi let u fly and eat grass next time i wont be so meng le the most if i meng den i let u have a safer place to fly into like the swimming pool =X Yun jie jie du bu qi i kinda scratch ur bike when i fell =S

The 1st thing when i came home was my mummy's reaction to my injuries...she thought i fell into the long kang zzZZZzzz....can say, i am injured from top to toe. I wonder who design and build tt stupid gate build so narrow somemore got slope downwards...my estimation nt good so ahahax ram into the gate...i shld have let kris down the bike b4 i do such a stunt, i feel guilty tt i made her fly. Seriously i veri long never see a person fly tt far it was like maybe 2secs she was in mid-air =X luckily got grass patch for her landing or else later her gr come and bite me lolx ....

i guess i would have to stay ugly for a couple of days, wonder when my face injuries would heal. Was wanting to go to the dental today and ask the dentist to do something abt my chip-off tooth but ahahax i fell back to sleep..

There is this song "mei gui mei gui wo ai ni" today i woke up to a direct english translation of that song "rose rose i love you, with a aching heart"....-_______-
with such a lousy song playing in my house i have to wake up..and tt song was in a love song collection cd eeewww...kill me!

yay i finally had sashimi today...wahhhh my favourite. Thinking abt food ohoh i am feeling hungry le. My fridge is totally pack wid chocolates. Easter is around the corner so i guess tt my sister was thinking of plain feeding me wid them so i get fatter. Imagine a medium-size chocolate covered easter egg and when u bite into it hidden inside is M & M chocolates which is chocolate cum chocolate how fattening....but i still want to eat it =D

Thinking of popping panadol later b4 i sleep i feel the pain from the cuts.


something i took...
it spelled out my feelings tt day.



blog off....




Tuesday, April 04, 2006, 1:12 AM
yay....

its now 1.14am and guess wad i am at gina's hse whooohoo....she came and pick me up jus now at my hse i was touched shhh...its a secret...and i was half-drunk at the time she came and she have to guide me to her hse =] its jus that my hse got a btl of rasberry volka and its like sitting there staring at me den i made my way to the store and found 3 cans of sprite there so i tot y not, have a lil drink..

But i think my lil drink turn out to be a lil too much =X i stopped drinking when gina reached my place. sianx my bag for chalet is big. Dint knoe wad things i put into it looks fat in a way. I was hungry and so was gina so i order Mac. delivery to my hse. The thing was i forgot the delivery hotline and jus as i was to call the help-line a mac delivery advertisment was showing on tv and i look closely yay got the hotline lolx...stun O.O

After dinner i took my things and left home. I look like illegal immigrant and gina look like smuggler y i say that leh? tts becos i carry my camping bag come out at night like china-women come all the way from far finding a place to settle while gina was holding on to 2 btls of volka like dunno frm where smuggle out the drinks go and sell...hahax jkjk. Boarded the bus no.51 to hougang when i was told by gina the bad news the other bus no.27 to her hse the last service already gone long ago so have to walk. My expression HUH! stun 100 timex...

Okay so we walk on the way to her hse i see some exciting things "naked man night jogging another mysterious man holding a golf-stick swinging it by the road pavement" eh sry my mistake is half-naked man =) i tot i was really drunk at tt time seeing such things but conclusion: a drunk women is always clear in her thoughts, a half-drunk women is definate to have a clear mind.
hmmm...i am seriously blabbering now =D

jus got an sms frm chia en saying tt the time change to 2pm at the control station not 12.30 which means tt i can sleep more =)
ohya did forget to mention gina drag me to climb a hill jus now, she said:where got lo...but i think it is cos it is steep. We walk from hougang to punggol i see an acomplishment of walking a few km to her hse i feel thinner..

okay i shall stop here cos i think i type further i wont stop and btw i am still drunk and hungry.

boy ar can get to see you le i am happy =D


blog off... .. . . .




Sunday, April 02, 2006, 7:11 PM
Gosh there goes $$

came back from kai kai not long ago...feeling tired right now, dint sleep yesterday. Enrolment was alrite except the part of message deliver it was a killer. The whole chapel was freezing and the message was so long that i dose off to dreamland. Went to tampines mall and had lunch with yvonne,fiona and my lizard...Had a mos burger meal, happily munching away.

After lunch, yvonne and fiona went to church while lizard and me went to kai kai. I spend a 3-digit figure today, bought a shirt from esprit, purchase a liquid eye-liner and went to do treatment,wash,blow and cut my hair. Dint really want to do treatment at 1st but the hair-stylist bugged in cos they got a package promo. thingy so eventually i gave in. Do it all at once den the next time no-need to do le. lizard was doozing off while waiting for me to do the package, paisei ar...hmmm...the outcome not too bad the person knows how to cut. ohno i think i must stop to my splurging soon b4 i really have a huge-hole in my wallet. We shopped the whole orchard road today, haven had my dinner yet thinking of taking a short-nap now =]


mei de lizard and me =)

my hair-style now...
not tt much diff. actually.


->tired going to take a short nap now<-




4:13 AM
=D

y am i still awake at this hour, hmmm...guess tt i have to wake up in a few hrs time so not intending to sleep. If i sleep now haha guess tt i wont wake up till evening.

I mus say my omelette cooking skills are improving after cooking once at gina's hse and 2nd time which is today. Hmmm...might not appear tt nice looking but it taste nice.
hidden beneath the egg,-sausage,crab-meat topped with melted cheese. kinda found cheese in my fridge so wahahaha i use tt no need to use butter. Good way to improvise. butter is oily but cheese is fattening so both doesnt really make much a diff. still fattening. But i ate it down already too late =D


i cook it =)




Saturday, April 01, 2006, 1:21 AM
slack

today work was kinda slack...hmmm..izzit considered good or bad, good-lesser things to do, able to clock-off earlier, bad-manager chases you to clock-off earlier which means u took so much time to travel there return back wid lesser pay. I was being usher aka reception, its been long since i got the duty of being usher. There wasn't alot of ppl even until 7+ and the manager was thinking of chasing 2 ppl to clock-off early.

Luckily the ppl finally roam in at abt 8+ and everything was kinda back to normal. I had to smile the whole day today =) the manager ask me to....i was thinking everybody to him is ah girl tts what he always use to call us..we got name de dun always call ah girl and think tt we will respond hor. He told me to clock-out at 9.30pm which is an hr earlier cos there wasn't much ppl at tt time and there were kinda too many of us standing around. I went to matilda to look for kristin and jf. Jus nice jf clock-out the same time as me at least got some1 to accompany me.

I ordered fish n chips set there, kinda feeling hungry...and guess wad when i came back i saw a note on the table wid my name on it saying tt there is sotong mee in the rice cooker. In order not to waste food i ate it down also and my stomach is smiling happily =D

Sighx i still miss my boyboy alot...hope he could find some time just to sms or call to disturb me, at least i would feel much happier.

wo hao xiang hao xiang ni, ni zhi dao mah?