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You look so beautiful todayWhen you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it
In the end all I wanted you to do is stay here with me.
This hurts with every HeartBeat
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006, 2:29 PM
die
i wonder what's the use of studying when i don't understand an effing thing.i'm going to get my fucking ass kicked.
Sometimes i realize the mistakes of getting in here the first place,
all those regrets be it in life or studies.
But
of happier moments would be meeting gaibang.
i count my blessings to have friends like them.
I feel that i'm a let down, i splurge and i'm a failure in studies.
What can be a greater torture to be compared to others.
I'm nothing.
(i wished i was better off dead)
Saturday, August 26, 2006, 11:30 PM
190.
Mumbling to song lyrics : zhen de (zhang shao han)
its brendy's birthday and i bought cake.
(cookies and cream from swensens)
its tasty.
Her mom cooked loads of food,
its like i'm eating buffet there's even a strawberry salad.
At the rate i'm eating, there's no way i could loose weight.
I even ate a soyamango dessert.
evidence of my eating pleasure:
i'm beginning to worry about CARC, eyung was unable to reveal my CA results due to some memes from the upper management that did some alteration.
I wonder why are they so secretive over the results.
The thought next week to be over makes me feel really high.
Wanting an Anna Sui make-up set motivates me to work.
one of my latest sketches.
study mode:ON!
Tuesday, August 22, 2006, 1:09 AM
mugging
i guess this would be my 2nd last post before i isolate myself into the world of books. it was 12pm i woke up and headed to revise on my CARC. I think this is the subject i worry most apart from my Cmaths 1. Not knowing the actual marks i score for overall makes me really want to mentally self-destruct. I have not utter fate in my lab test results but i have to send an email to eyung soon to confirm the marks. I'm going to plunge into eternal hell.it really sucks.
Nana drop-by my house today and we intended to head down to tamp. to celebrate lao er's belated birthday but it was cancelled last minute so we headed out for dinner. The weather outside was a meltdown, i could fry an egg.
Had steak + soup + fries + shirley temple mocktail at V8 cafe. its such a sin.
20 mins or so i was fiddling with cherry stalk using my tongue to tie a knot on it. I dint take a picture of my accomplishment cos the aftereffect stalk looks totally disgusting.
We slack at starbucks drank this:
caramel frappachino.
the sweetness the whipped cream = ++kg
went home and i did some cutting. i meant my hair.as usual its the fringe problem.
now its looking like this.
i still think that there's a problem with it but i dont know how to further chop it so i'll just leave it for the time being. I'm getting my hair highlighted again, still pondering on the colour.
any suggestions?
shlould i go jogging tml? I wonder where on earth i can jog to in geylang, round about singapore post and come back haha.
its dumb.
Saturday, August 19, 2006, 12:00 AM
of icecream.
Currently spinning in my head: Love again(Cascada)Finally i've got a rather decent blogskin after much searching. Wadever of punk or gothic its in my book of favoritism. The time now its nearing 12pm and i'm craving for icecream in my freezer not thinking of the after effects after i gobbled it down.
Was away to dsag tut at 11am met kris at the interchange. After knowing that they freeze this week's attendance i had a "dunno what the heck" feeling. My eye bags had deepen and i look all so shag up i want to just sleep forever, be it dead. I found out at my fringe is still looking all so "urrgh", it dint lengthen at all. The feel of "killing" myself for bad hair day was really there.
Cmsk was smooth, i never felt so calm to get things over and done with. We were given slips of paper to choose our relevant roles and our stand to our scenario. I with my itchy fingers choose the middle slip and my expression was of stun. Okay its secretary, luckily i did some note down b4 hand. Kaiwen was our chairperson and she was feeling nervous but she did a good job for the role. Our meeting was surppose to be 15 mins long but ours lasted for only 7 mins.
We all felt the shit factor for the short-timing as Regina did the overall evaluation of our meeting.
However she said we did a good job and we pass the meeting, that was a sigh of relieve.
Intended to celebrate lao er's birthday today, but he had to go for his bike lessons. I am starting to envy guys with bike. Why can't i be a guy in the 1st place.
-nice clothes
-nice wallet
-nice accessories
-bike riding
-freedom
ahhh wadever...she hurries off to grab her icecream.
Thursday, August 17, 2006, 12:32 AM
another change..
Just another of those changes to my blog layout.Though i detest the brown colour, i'll change it once i find something more appealing.
Very soon I'll be mugging or else tp would find an ulterior methods to kick our asses out.
If you happen to see me outside the school compound its me getting my butt kicked.
The means and methods:
1) retaking of module 2wice (goodbye!)
2) CU points below 1 for 3 continous sem.(bye!)
3) CU points below 1, fail main exam no sup-paper(byebye!)
4) Fail CA, fail main exam & no sup-paper(go to hell!)
etc..many more methods to come.
its maybe a good thing for me to get out..
Monday, August 14, 2006, 10:08 PM
happy
Rewind back
This here is happy a donut.
The smiley on it makes me feel like a happy lil kid devouring it.
Went to JB on sat, and my eyes widen at the sight of the delicious dunkin donuts.
There were a huge variety of flavored donuts available, its a pity we can't find a store here in singapore.(There was one in taka. but i am not sure whether it still exists)
We even bought back a box of 12 donuts but i think its somewhere in our tummies.
Nevertheless i had my rounds of shopping
1)billabong sling bag
2)heels
3)body-glove tee & shorts
4)ps2 games
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I went for lab lesson at 3pm today,
Guess what no lab lesson.
I actually felt retarded to travel all the way.
No attendance was taken,
However i attended the revision lesson.
I actually thought it was hillarious people wear cosplay costumes on normal days
until today i really saw it with my own eyes.
Apparently, its rather comparable to a rug.
I saw a walking rug.
Saturday, August 12, 2006, 1:13 AM
promise*
Today it's comskill day, nothing much to expect from it but the usual writing agenda + minutes practice. My meeting time next week its at 2.25pm, formal office wear.Just pray i dont be that unlucky to get any of the major roles, it really sucks either to host the meeting or to jot down notes.
NO MORE ASSIGNMENTS!
(screams)
Currently milobing's song qian shou is in my head together with nic's wide smile.
Went to Bugis with Gina, ate katong laksa + otah.
Bought the total of 3 items:
(it's been such along wait for their next album)
Was attracted to the colour of the jeans, not to mention the nice cutting.
However i came to a conclusion:
I'm fat!
You wont believe whats the size of tt pair of jeans, even i can't believe it.
hmmph...
Speaking of being fat, I'm feeling hungry.
Should i grab a bite at this hour?
Not to mention i drank a tall strawberry and cream frappuccino at starbucks.
Lets eat and worry later, i live to eat and eat to live.
*Now she just live pass day by day....
if you really did understand*
Friday, August 11, 2006, 12:11 AM
hello panda + pokey
8am dsag lab lesson, i'm glad i had a snooze till late noon 4+ yest. or else i won't be crawling to school for the lesson.Anyways a day off yest. means more make-ups today. The feeling of waiting for lessons really suck.
10am---------->3pm
(arrow indicates waiting time)
Luckily we had oopg assignment to keep us busy with.
The stupid method codes don't want to function.
The staring at the screen looking at alien codes doesn't make my day any better.
Not only that the program has a F9 for maths:
$50 * 3 = $100???!
wth!
I dint solve the problem cos it wasn't my fault.
I was hungry, sleepy , hungry.....hungry...
my brunch was at 10+am, my snack was at 4+ and my hello panda + chocolate pokey biscuit was at 6+...pathetic
And after all that snacking i was still hungry. =/
I'm growing fat.
Reach home for dinner at 8+pm. My delighted face when i saw my proper meal =D
AND
durian!
I've seen enough blog entries of others consumption of durian, now its my turn.
Ever so full, i think i just gain a few kg within minutes.
Its time to go on diet.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006, 12:47 AM
tuesday night fever?
Lets do a lil backtracking shall we?I wasn't really feeling very well on monday, after having a bowl of laksa a sudden stomach cramp came over me. The pain was overwhelming and it comes and goes, I couldn't hang on much longer for the lessons so kris accompanied me to the neighborhood clinic. I can't even laugh tt much as it made my tummy pain worser. The queue number at tt time was a hundred odd and my queue number was TWO?-.-
I was wondering whether they gave me the wrong number or something but luckily the number restarted after 120.
The doctor told me to:
1. stay away from cheese
2.no milk =(
3.no spicy stuff
4.no sour stuff
5.more rest
he's a really nice doctor, he gave me a 2 day's mc. =]
However i did report to school at 8am for lab lesson today, to finish off my OOPG assignment.
I still left the report and the class diagrams, urrgh sickening.
Met gina for lunch at mac.
Went home to change and we went down to clark quay to watch the fireworks.
I wasn't really impress by the fireworks, its just those normal plain sparks they set off.
The fireworks at baybeats were much better compared off.
Had dinner at this place:
i cant tell you the pasta there is awesome. The tomato-base is not watery and you can get to choose from a variety of pasta. Not only that the meal is filling, contented =)
After meal we had a drink at:
Apparently i told the waitress we were going to have a drink and i ask her for the drink-menu but they dint have it and i heard her say we don't sell fruit-drinks here.-.-
She thought we were underage or something.
I mean i wont deliberately step into a bar and order fruit juice(no offence).
we had a glass each.
The doctor dint told me not to drink =X
Saturday, August 05, 2006, 10:15 PM
?
while walking home, i saw this!
i guess the painter did a magnificant job painting the railing, he even help to brighten up a dull bicycle. Guess the owner would save the cost of re-painting the bicycle.
Today I really felt like i walked through hell and made a u-turn. My mind was blank, i died.
1:03 AM
Grrr!
I came back home exact timing of 12 midnight, for the moment back that i felt like cinderella. The 1st thing i did when i came home was to fix the stupid printer of mine.I woke up at 8.50am just to print the dsag tut. and of all the good timing the printer went down on me. I was trying to fix the effing printer and I thought it was the USB cable giving me the problems. At that moment i felt like tossing the printer out of the window. I wrote out the tut. qns with my bare-hands and it was 9.30am. I had to be out of the house by 10am and i haven got ready yet. 5mins was what i actually took to bathe, i was wondering whether i gotten rid all the soap and shampoo b4 i came out. I manage to get out of the house at 10.10am.
Attended tut. and a boring cmsk lesson. Role play meeting is coming up, its another formal wear.
Lets hope i would be able to find a formal plain white collar shirt to go with my blazer.
Please drop me a collar shirt from the sky.
I drop by SHSS to meet up with kristina, of all the memes the guard dint want to let me in. I mean i am visiting a fren, isn't it still a form of visiting? What is he fucking thinking, i wont put a bomb in the school.
Anyways, things wasn't going smooth for me today.
Nevertheless, pool was also going cranky..the balls just wont budge and make their way into the holes. Its probably my skill but i blame it on the ball.
I've burn a hole in my pocket after buying a shirt from Queens. My limited edition elmo shirt was gone! -.-
I bought another brand, but its price is somewad similar to junkfood tee.
After @$$#$@^$$&& i managed to find out the problem with the printer its the loose plug!
idiot!
Thursday, August 03, 2006, 8:46 PM
A lil something.
tsk tsk i skipped lab lesson today and snoozed till afternoon.Such wonderful sleep i had.
Tml i've got tut. lesson at 11am followed by cmsk at 1pm.
Its forever a boring routine.
I still can't slove the compilation problem of oopg,
I've been stabbed by the number of errors that pop up.
After lessons,i'll be at St. George's pub,
which i am still clueless abt its where abouts.
Lets hope i'll be able to find a direct bus back home from there.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006, 10:14 PM
Memories
the vivid memories i recall,its just not there anymore.
its just another flashback,
Another rememberence of living in my aesthetic dream.
I just can't make the delete button to work,
its an alternative to erase off my mistakes.
She's being her emotional self.
hiding herself once more.
She wished for the rain to pour on her.
9:15 PM
Playing =)
i was bored so i decided to do something to my face.No i dint do face
i cant do this on normal days, it will scare the living hell.
So i decided to wait for the Halloween or gothic event.
For now, my major concern is my hair,
when will the stupid thing grow back!
Grrr...
I wonder why the things i favor are so costly
1)zippo(cross edition) ->$97
2)bracelet wid a dangling cross->$49.90
(its hanging at xcraft's display cabinet)
temptation.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006, 12:03 AM
o2 Jam
My current addiction =)
jamming away to the music..
NOT SUITABLE FOR THOSE WITH:
1)slow reactions
2)eye-sight problems
HOWEVER
Above game will result in severe gongness after prolong hours. =X
lolx